School is not going so well. I'm having issues with classes and with people. I am also really getting depressed about issues. I am one to do energy work but can't do daily or so rituals. I'm trying to focus on school but keep getting distractions. Its really getting hard. Bills are coming in again and I just need my teeth fixed. I don't want doctors bills unless I go to medicaid. Yet I need to move out first. Mom has a big deal with her daughter having a reputation of getting assistance. I can't afford the bills. I can't afford doctors. So either no doctors and bad health/ good doctors and better health. I can deal. No one needs to know.

Right now I'm trying to do my best. Next weekend I am doing the ren faire in pa and so I'll get away. Plus thats part of me. I can go do what I love. Can't wait. Tomorrow I am going to ren club at school or just go to the bar after for some food and relax time. I like the bar cuz I can socialize and I don't have to drink. Then the 19th, I will go to a group ritual with two friends. They haven't seen one yet. I am glad. So I'd best study.

Write some encouragement or something I can do spiritually to help

I talked to my room-mate. All is better. I set down what I needed to say and we 'made up' as friends. So I am glad. I will do a cleansing ritual as much as needed to keep the room positive. It is minus the sage insence and real candles. I have used my energy and 4 elements in the quarters. Electric candles work but i miss fire. 

I am glad that all is going well. I'm wanting to focus on school so much right now. I want to get honors or at least get the 3.0 for a semester. I think I could do it. :)

I moved in last night. I love the dorm. It is a new building of suite style dorms. It is so awesome! The only problem is my room mate whom I have had serious issues with. My suitemate is my old room mate. I am staying because of her. If some thing happens the girl needs to move. there is still spots open for her to get into. I am hoping she does. I really do. I cleansed my room today. I will continue to do what I can to keep it positive. I won't go anywhere.

I really care about college. I am staying away from people who don't treat me right. Make new friends and have others who did keep in touch this summer and do care.

It is different being 5 years older or less than the others. Most of them are 19 to 21. most are people who call themselves witches but don't follow by it. or do and it turns out bad.

I need a change. Three semesters left. I am glad and It will be great

Greetings! So I've been planning my college altar. Since my family and my suitemates are all okay with my religion I am going to get an altar for school. Its most likely gonna be a moving one. so that if people come I can put in a drawer. I have electric candles, wooden and clay figures, irish things, my mug for water. I need to figure out what else I could put up. I have been plain so that i could easily hide things. I was thinking of herbs and cauldron? What is everyones thoughts? Just remember dorms so no flaming things.

Thanks

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I've had such a busy couple weeks. I work so much and then have a college course. So balancing is sometimes hard. I had a blessed holiday.

A shop in Bethlehem holds public rituals on holidays sponsored by the CUUPS group that I am in. I finally was able to attend. I am used to solitary but I've been searching for a coven.

It was wow. I felt at home with these people. Then the ritual began. I felt it. I felt the energy. I felt at peace. I felt perfect. They had a talk about what the holiday is and turned the wheel. Which turned into the raising energy. They put on irish dance music. My two friends from cuups got me to dance. I was nervous to do it. the High priest was impressed. Then we called down. 2 did a small ritual thing. Then the energy let go. This is what I needed. I have had so much pain and anger. I felt it go from my head down and escape. I have been more peaceful and happy since then. After we closed, I stayed and talked with people. They were so accepting with me. I loved it. I am wanting to take classes at the shop and possibly join the coven that I met. I felt so right there. No sucking energy like I've experienced. Nothing but positive.

I hope everyone had a blessed Lughnasadh!